I am so confused and feeling such mixed emotions from it all!

I have always had a stammer, most of the time not noticeable, it has just been the last few years due to a stressful job and horrible boss that it all went pete tong!

Anyway, since I have been doing my apprenticeship in the salon, I have completely changed and been so calm and stammer has got back to being hardly there. The only time I have some difficulty is on the phone when there are lots of people...

After a lot of thinking I have reconsidered doing the MA with the salon. After speaking to her, she has said until I prove that I am going to keep my clients etc, that I'll be on the starting wage of £2.-- per hour. Between now and September this will be the 2 days that I would have been going to college, so I'll keep my current job at PO but reduce my hours and work at the salon building up my client base. I've also ordered business cards and price lists for me to start mobile work so I can...

Ok so went to meeting at spa and I am now quite peeved.

I can start there in 2 weeks, I just need to get my assignments marked off. I have done all my practical assessments and the tutor is happy for me to finish college before we are meant to. I can go to the spa on the 2 days when I was meant to go to college and they will put it down as work experience. She also wants me to do Saturdays there but the current job I have won't let me drop saturdays as they are already short staffed....

Today is the day that I have the meeting with my new boss and my tutor for next year. It's at 11.30 and I have butterflies already. I know it's not an interview or anything like that, I'm just still nervous. I really hope that my stammer isn't as bad as it was when I did have the interview at the spa. It didn't bother her, but I just want her to know that it was just nerves and that normally it isn't that bad.

Wish me luck! Hopefully I'll get a start date and know what the pay...

I don't know why but I really despise Sundays. lol

Even though it's my only day off at the moment, I never seem to get a decent lie-in. This morning I was up at 8.

Every week, the whole day is just wasted. We do our food shopping, watch a bit of telly, if the weather is good then go for a walk or a bike ride. The day just drags though and is really boring 99% of the time.

I think part of the problem is that we don't have a garden, I know that if I did,...