evening ladies / gents.
I have to have an operation in 2 weeks, to have my left fallopian tube removed (my right tube has already been removed a few years ago due to an ectopic pregnancy but this was done by an emergency op) I had another ectopic last year & the hospital salvaged my left tube for some crazy unknown reason, They should of taken it there & then as it was badly damaged. Anyway thats another story.
I'm currently in the middle of having Ivf or I was until this got in the way!
The left tube has developed something called hydrosalpinx that was discovered late last year, I was told the tube might not need to come out depending on the severity but a recent scan has shown my tube has doubled in size & will most definetly hinder any chance of conception.. The hydrosalpinx of the size i have is harmful to Ivf & will more than likely prevent any embryos from implanting. so much so my consultant put my Ivf chance of success at 3% with the tube still in & the chance of another ectopic at 85% so my consultant won't pursue any further until it's dealt with. I got the letter through & I thought it'll be months away.... erm try this month
I know it has to be done, & I know I'm being a baby but in all honesty I'm scared sh!tless to the point of having sleepless nights & being sick.
I know I've had an op before but it was an emergency so no time to dwell upon it, I was rushed in & that was that.
This time I KNOW it's happening & the times edging closer & closer, I feel sick sick sick! it's not just the op I'm scared of, I'm also scared of waking up totally infertile which I will be with no tubes but mainly I'm scared of the fact I only have Ivf to rely on. It's not like I can go onto & have a 'miracle' natural pregnancy with no tubes is it.
I'm also scared something bad happens & I don't wake up (yes I'm being ott & you can laugh as my husband already has) but I can't help thinking it.
I've never had cysts on my ovarys in my life my problem has always been tubal, but I've had 2, 3cm cysts decide to grow on my right ovary... typical hey things like to add to my problems, my surgeon is taking the cysts while I'm under, I also have to have my fallopian tube stumps (couldn't think of the medical word used to describe it) burnt down, & any scar tissue lasered from my womb, he said my op could take upto 5 hours
He's going to try do laparoscopy but he said with the tidying up he has to do he can't promise it won't be laparotomy (open) surgery. that's just the beginning of it all as 11 days after the op providing I'm well I'm back at the Ivf unit to start my Ivf all over again.
Do you know when you wish you could run away & come back to everything fixed?? well I wish that just for once that could happen right now (sorry, people probably have worser problems than this) but for me this is a major ordeal. it's always one thing after another with me, get one thing sorted then something else happens, i hope it doesn't look like I'm feeling sorry for myself because I'm not i just needed to have a vent for once xx
I have to have an operation in 2 weeks, to have my left fallopian tube removed (my right tube has already been removed a few years ago due to an ectopic pregnancy but this was done by an emergency op) I had another ectopic last year & the hospital salvaged my left tube for some crazy unknown reason, They should of taken it there & then as it was badly damaged. Anyway thats another story.
I'm currently in the middle of having Ivf or I was until this got in the way!
The left tube has developed something called hydrosalpinx that was discovered late last year, I was told the tube might not need to come out depending on the severity but a recent scan has shown my tube has doubled in size & will most definetly hinder any chance of conception.. The hydrosalpinx of the size i have is harmful to Ivf & will more than likely prevent any embryos from implanting. so much so my consultant put my Ivf chance of success at 3% with the tube still in & the chance of another ectopic at 85% so my consultant won't pursue any further until it's dealt with. I got the letter through & I thought it'll be months away.... erm try this month
I know it has to be done, & I know I'm being a baby but in all honesty I'm scared sh!tless to the point of having sleepless nights & being sick.
I know I've had an op before but it was an emergency so no time to dwell upon it, I was rushed in & that was that.
This time I KNOW it's happening & the times edging closer & closer, I feel sick sick sick! it's not just the op I'm scared of, I'm also scared of waking up totally infertile which I will be with no tubes but mainly I'm scared of the fact I only have Ivf to rely on. It's not like I can go onto & have a 'miracle' natural pregnancy with no tubes is it.
I'm also scared something bad happens & I don't wake up (yes I'm being ott & you can laugh as my husband already has) but I can't help thinking it.
I've never had cysts on my ovarys in my life my problem has always been tubal, but I've had 2, 3cm cysts decide to grow on my right ovary... typical hey things like to add to my problems, my surgeon is taking the cysts while I'm under, I also have to have my fallopian tube stumps (couldn't think of the medical word used to describe it) burnt down, & any scar tissue lasered from my womb, he said my op could take upto 5 hours
He's going to try do laparoscopy but he said with the tidying up he has to do he can't promise it won't be laparotomy (open) surgery. that's just the beginning of it all as 11 days after the op providing I'm well I'm back at the Ivf unit to start my Ivf all over again.
Do you know when you wish you could run away & come back to everything fixed?? well I wish that just for once that could happen right now (sorry, people probably have worser problems than this) but for me this is a major ordeal. it's always one thing after another with me, get one thing sorted then something else happens, i hope it doesn't look like I'm feeling sorry for myself because I'm not i just needed to have a vent for once xx
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