laurakate
Well-Known Member
I've been reading over the threads I've started here on salon geek over the last few years and a high amount of them are asking about advice on how to deal with situations that occur when in employment in the industry.
My recent stress is derived from having booked on/paid for a training course under my own steam and I'm worried that this will offend my employer as the course training provider asked where I worked in order that they could set me up on the training so I'm now anxious that it'll look like I've gone over someone's head when I totally didn't mean it to look that way.
I nearly always worry about offending the company I work for. It's been the same in most jobs I've had and it's mentally exhausting. I don't know if it's because I need to grow a pair and stop worrying and stop giving people power over me or if it's because I'm a very intelligent young woman who would be better off at looking at self employment (or doing something else entirely!) where I can celebrate and reward my intelligence by not having to answer to things that I don't always agree with. Like I'm tired of feeling that I need to ask for things and then kicking myself for not being assertive. I'm tired of not feeling in control when I have every level of intelligence to potentially make that a possibility. I don't know if it's a me thing or a working for other people thing but I'm tired of fearing consequences and tellings off that I don't always feel are justified. I'm tired of feeling that I need to justify myself when it comes to wanting holiday and time off.
I'm a good worker and I don't present a bad attitude. The above is what goes on in my head rather than comes out of my mouth or is shown in actions.
Is this the train of thought that a lot of people go through before becoming self employed? I don't know if I want to do that either to be honest.
I just want to know what to make of how I'm feeling really. Help!
My recent stress is derived from having booked on/paid for a training course under my own steam and I'm worried that this will offend my employer as the course training provider asked where I worked in order that they could set me up on the training so I'm now anxious that it'll look like I've gone over someone's head when I totally didn't mean it to look that way.
I nearly always worry about offending the company I work for. It's been the same in most jobs I've had and it's mentally exhausting. I don't know if it's because I need to grow a pair and stop worrying and stop giving people power over me or if it's because I'm a very intelligent young woman who would be better off at looking at self employment (or doing something else entirely!) where I can celebrate and reward my intelligence by not having to answer to things that I don't always agree with. Like I'm tired of feeling that I need to ask for things and then kicking myself for not being assertive. I'm tired of not feeling in control when I have every level of intelligence to potentially make that a possibility. I don't know if it's a me thing or a working for other people thing but I'm tired of fearing consequences and tellings off that I don't always feel are justified. I'm tired of feeling that I need to justify myself when it comes to wanting holiday and time off.
I'm a good worker and I don't present a bad attitude. The above is what goes on in my head rather than comes out of my mouth or is shown in actions.
Is this the train of thought that a lot of people go through before becoming self employed? I don't know if I want to do that either to be honest.
I just want to know what to make of how I'm feeling really. Help!