crystaltash
Well-Known Member
Hi geeks. I haven't been on for a while. I've had lots going on in my life and things haven't really been getting any better. I was due to get married last August and 5 weeks before the wedding my fiance called it all off. I had to move out of our house back to my parents. Basically my life fell apart and I didn't take time to deal with it. I had to keep on going with the salon (obviously) and I threw myself into Internet dating sites, meeting some very strange people and being let down again and again.
Before Christmas I thought I had finally met the perfect guy. Things were fab but then he went home to England for 2 weeks over Christmas and when he came back he told me that he had decided to sort his marriage out (I knew he was separated). That was the last straw and I have been feeling so low ever since. I have a history of depression and I had been doing so well...even come off my anti depressants. But now it's back with a vengeance and I just can't see the light. I know I have so much to be thankful for....my business, I bought my own house, my friends and I did have a lucky escape from marrying the wrong man because we weren't happy. But none of that makes a difference at the minute. It's such a struggle getting through each day and work is so hard having to put in a face pretending everything is fine. But obviously I don't want my business to suffer.
I just can't seem to get it out of my head that I'm too old now for anyone else to want me. I'm 32. All my friends are settled, married with kids, etc so it's not like I'm out all the time to meet someone else and working in female dominated industry doesn't help. I have come off all the sites because they weren't doing me any favours but now im totally alone and it's the first time I've had to face it and I'm scared. I love being in a relationship and I have so much love to give someone but I just dont know if I will ever meet anyone again.
I'm going to the doctor on Tuesday because I do need help. It's just so hard for anyone who hasn't had depression to understand.
Anyway, even writing this has helped a bit, so thank you salon geek. Hopefully the light at the end of the tunnel will come into view soon.
Xxx
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Before Christmas I thought I had finally met the perfect guy. Things were fab but then he went home to England for 2 weeks over Christmas and when he came back he told me that he had decided to sort his marriage out (I knew he was separated). That was the last straw and I have been feeling so low ever since. I have a history of depression and I had been doing so well...even come off my anti depressants. But now it's back with a vengeance and I just can't see the light. I know I have so much to be thankful for....my business, I bought my own house, my friends and I did have a lucky escape from marrying the wrong man because we weren't happy. But none of that makes a difference at the minute. It's such a struggle getting through each day and work is so hard having to put in a face pretending everything is fine. But obviously I don't want my business to suffer.
I just can't seem to get it out of my head that I'm too old now for anyone else to want me. I'm 32. All my friends are settled, married with kids, etc so it's not like I'm out all the time to meet someone else and working in female dominated industry doesn't help. I have come off all the sites because they weren't doing me any favours but now im totally alone and it's the first time I've had to face it and I'm scared. I love being in a relationship and I have so much love to give someone but I just dont know if I will ever meet anyone again.
I'm going to the doctor on Tuesday because I do need help. It's just so hard for anyone who hasn't had depression to understand.
Anyway, even writing this has helped a bit, so thank you salon geek. Hopefully the light at the end of the tunnel will come into view soon.
Xxx
Sent from my GT-N7100 using SalonGeek mobile app