I don't have any friends at all, pretty strange for my age.
I just like being alone and I enjoy my own company I don't have the heart to go out and associate with people that call you their friend, over analyse everyone that walks past you and bitch about every tom, dick and Harry.
I'm like this because i have been let down by all of my friends, my bestest friends were my cousins and when I went through a tough stage in life they didn't support me, they did the complete opposite and bitched about me, now that I don't tell them how I'm doing in life or what I'm doing they act like nothing ever happened.
They expect me to call and text them and kiss their a$$e$ After they realised I wasn't interested in having a friendship with any of them they try to gain me and act disappointed with the fact that I'm not around anymore.
I'm not interested, these days family aren't even there for you so nothing will convince me that their is a such thing as a true friend.
I have two friends that I consider my family and I love them with all of my heart, one of them is a female and I grew up with her since I was about 6, we even went to school together but we grew apart and stopped talking for two years after we left school but now we talk again, we probably see each other once every 3 months but we do talk on the phone every two weeks or so, she's the kind of friend that will ALWAYS be there, she won't question why you have been quiet and just understands everything. We both have grown to be completely different people but we leave that aside. I'm always there for here no matter how long we haven't spoken and she's the same with me.
My other best friend is a male, ive only known him for about two years but I don't know where he is, he cut all contact and I haven't heard from him in about a year, before that he was going through a really rough patch and told me he was going to disappear to get better, so wherever he is I will always have him as the bestest friend, even though he cut contact without an explanation I know he will be back soon after he becomes better and I will always be there for him.
Those two people are what friendship is to me.
I've put effort in to friendships in the past and it got no where.
That's why I'm not interested.
I think I am enough.