hi geeks
I know this is not really beauty related but since I dont want to speak about this to any of my friends or family (who are all abroad anyway) I dont know whom else to turn to. I am engaged and have been with my partner for 3 years. Everyone loves him and thinks the world of him. What no one knows though (because I lie about it as I am ashamed) is that he has been in and out of work for as long as I have known him. He will work for a few months, then either get the sack or leave as he doesnt like it. He is very up and down and unstable emotionally and sometimes I think that he must be borderline (but he is very giving and loving too on the upside).
I am so tired of it. We always manage as he gets paid ok when he works and then lives off the savings but now I know that there are not a lot left and his newest venture is not going that well. I am constantly worried about what is happening next and he is so unhappy (that is why he has changed jobs all the time) and he is 36 years old so it is not like he is a boy.. sometimes he is crying saying he has nothing as he has screwed up his life so much. I am currently studying and havent got any income. He promised to take care of me which he has and he was the one who kept nagging me to leave my job (which I hated and did for 6 years) and to make a change but i feel I can not trust him like this as I have no idea how he will get all the money that we need. Needless to say I am not wanting to have children as things are always so unstable. I lie to family and friends that he is in the same job as I know my family would be really worried if they knew the truth and I dont want them to worry. I am at a point where I feel I am in my 30ies, I am pretty and smart and I wonder if I am just wasting my time or am I just a cruel person for feeling like this? I am so down by it so often. I am so scared of leaving him though as I am scared he would harm himself. He is a lovely person and he always puts me first and I love him but I dont know if I see our future together as I cant see myself having a family when things are always so unstable. I just feel so lost and alone with this.
Am I a terrible person for feeling like this, should I just stay and support him and hope things will get better or should I leave? I know lots of people are without jobs etc in this climate but I feel this is more than that, he is emotionally unstable and he has been like this all his life. He had ONE job once that lasted 1,5 years and all the others have been very short.. his cv is full of lies and as he has moved around internationally you could never tell............ I need some advise from you geeks please I have just been crying as he had a breakdown
I know this is not really beauty related but since I dont want to speak about this to any of my friends or family (who are all abroad anyway) I dont know whom else to turn to. I am engaged and have been with my partner for 3 years. Everyone loves him and thinks the world of him. What no one knows though (because I lie about it as I am ashamed) is that he has been in and out of work for as long as I have known him. He will work for a few months, then either get the sack or leave as he doesnt like it. He is very up and down and unstable emotionally and sometimes I think that he must be borderline (but he is very giving and loving too on the upside).
I am so tired of it. We always manage as he gets paid ok when he works and then lives off the savings but now I know that there are not a lot left and his newest venture is not going that well. I am constantly worried about what is happening next and he is so unhappy (that is why he has changed jobs all the time) and he is 36 years old so it is not like he is a boy.. sometimes he is crying saying he has nothing as he has screwed up his life so much. I am currently studying and havent got any income. He promised to take care of me which he has and he was the one who kept nagging me to leave my job (which I hated and did for 6 years) and to make a change but i feel I can not trust him like this as I have no idea how he will get all the money that we need. Needless to say I am not wanting to have children as things are always so unstable. I lie to family and friends that he is in the same job as I know my family would be really worried if they knew the truth and I dont want them to worry. I am at a point where I feel I am in my 30ies, I am pretty and smart and I wonder if I am just wasting my time or am I just a cruel person for feeling like this? I am so down by it so often. I am so scared of leaving him though as I am scared he would harm himself. He is a lovely person and he always puts me first and I love him but I dont know if I see our future together as I cant see myself having a family when things are always so unstable. I just feel so lost and alone with this.
Am I a terrible person for feeling like this, should I just stay and support him and hope things will get better or should I leave? I know lots of people are without jobs etc in this climate but I feel this is more than that, he is emotionally unstable and he has been like this all his life. He had ONE job once that lasted 1,5 years and all the others have been very short.. his cv is full of lies and as he has moved around internationally you could never tell............ I need some advise from you geeks please I have just been crying as he had a breakdown