Pinkbunny28
Well-Known Member
Hi all. I ummed and ahhed about writing here. Some of you may have realised I've split up with my fiance. It has been messy and I just feel very vulnerable right now. I feel like I got away before the verbal abuse turned into physical smacking and the control issue worsened, but even so, I don't like being on my own and I'm not used to it. I was with him for 4 years and previous to that I'd had relationships that had covered about 18 months so I don't really know what to do with myself. I'm lucky in that my friends are looking after me (even had a boy I've known for years offer to take me for a drive so I can rant haha).
I feel like the last 4 months I've changed into a very scared individual with low self esteem, something that I definitely did not want. It has really shaken me but I now realise that if I had to lie about how I received injuries, it was never going to be right.
I've got to admit that although it was mostly between us that it didn't work, his parents had a lot to do with why it didn't. In the end, they had the final say, which is completely wrong. He made the break up messy by refusing to cooperate with me getting my things back (I have mostly everything and actually I'm better off now!).
I think I'm so upset because I know I didn't cause it. Ok, I contributed, but it was not my fault and I can't let myself feel that it was, or is. I feel vulnerable because he will definitely say things that aren't true about me. At the end of the day, him and his parents have a lot more to lose if they try anything as I have a lot of dirt on them but I wouldn't do that unless I had no option.
I'm not sure what I want anyone to say, I just need a little advice on the best way forward please? Just feel a bit lost. x
I feel like the last 4 months I've changed into a very scared individual with low self esteem, something that I definitely did not want. It has really shaken me but I now realise that if I had to lie about how I received injuries, it was never going to be right.
I've got to admit that although it was mostly between us that it didn't work, his parents had a lot to do with why it didn't. In the end, they had the final say, which is completely wrong. He made the break up messy by refusing to cooperate with me getting my things back (I have mostly everything and actually I'm better off now!).
I think I'm so upset because I know I didn't cause it. Ok, I contributed, but it was not my fault and I can't let myself feel that it was, or is. I feel vulnerable because he will definitely say things that aren't true about me. At the end of the day, him and his parents have a lot more to lose if they try anything as I have a lot of dirt on them but I wouldn't do that unless I had no option.
I'm not sure what I want anyone to say, I just need a little advice on the best way forward please? Just feel a bit lost. x