Wow, I am quite overwhelmed at all the support on this
..thank you for sharing geeks, really is making me feel better already. This is the first time I have admitted out side my own head, I know I shouldn't feel ashamed but I do as I dont feel like I have the right to feel down/low/depressed as there really are so many ppl out there a lot worse off than me.
After reading someone said it was a chemical imbalance in the brain, that made me feel better as I think great, least it's not me being a drama queen, if you see what i mean.
I have researched foods, all natural ways to help with depression, I have taken up running again after being out for about 6 months with a bad knee, thats probably going to help soon. I am struggling a lot for money just lately and have lost a few clients which knocks my confidence even more, but I am trying to help myself by selling clothes on ebay (no takers yet
) and trying with the hairdressing to get some new clients.
I believe a lot of it is mind over matter but when i think I have tried and am trying everything to get past this and still its a constant battle i do wonder about the medication or a counsellor, i just really don't want to talk to a stranger face to face about this, I have no one around me i can turn to which is sad. I would prefer to just get on with it myself but i think after 3 years and still battling something has to change, especially after a geek said their mum was never the same for resisting the medication for a long time
I'm going to go on a few of the links that you guys have suggested and see how that goes.
I am trying so hard, Im trying to join a few exercise classes but two main problems i come to are 1- i physically have no money to pay for it! and 2 when i do get the pennies to go i normally chicken out as i always have to do these things on my own and that little voice in my head pops up and i get paranoid i guess that ppl will look at me and think im odd for going on my-craziness! i know they wont think that and if they did, so what? but its there and i hate it so much
Thank you so much to all of you for your advice, stories and offering to chat, I appreciate it so, so much, you wouldn't believe how much.
Thank you millions xxxxx