Ms.Matrix
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Hey guys!!
I need to vent and whine to someone, and you guys drew the short straw...
As you know I'm pregnant and I have been in this on and off again nonsense with my boyfriend...ex-boyfriend...boyfriend...the guy that got me knocked up. We once again decided to try it again...er...I decided I would take him back, anyhoo, I want to get married and have always wanted to get married, I never wanted to just be a 'baby momma' or a long-term girlfriend, I want to be a wife. I want to share my life with someone, build a life with someone, all that good old fashioned stuff.
I told him the other day that if this wasn't going to lead to marriage we don't need to be together, because we are wasting one anothers time...he asked me if I was ready for marriage and I said yes, he said he's not ready and he feels that I am "rushing" him...RUSHING??? RUSHING??? :irked: We have had so many good times and tender moments together and I truly love him, we have been together for a year and a couple of months, we have a baby on the way, we been playing house all this time why not make things legal? I have taken on the role of wife for him, when he was not working (like now) I'M the one that makes sure he has ciggerettes and whatever else his little heart desires, I'm the one that gets tackled on the bed whenever he's feeling randy, I'm the one that takes care of his business, keeps track of his important paperwork, writes down or memorizes his friends and family members phone numbers, because he can't keep track of 'em. I used to hand wash his unmentionables:Scared: when we didn't have laundry money!! I have gone damn near to the ends of the earth for this man...but he feels I'M RUSHING HIM!!!!!!! I'm so ding dang angry I just don't know what to do. We've been through me telling him "leave me alone, this ain't working" he still comes back. I dang near tried to kill him a couple weeks ago, tried to throw the apartment building at him and he STILL comes back...I've told him I hated him, couldn't stand the sight of him...and he still comes back....I don't understand, either he really loves me, doesn't understand english or he's a glutton for punishment. It's apparent he has no intentions of every being out of my life...especially now since he has a son on the way.
WHAT DO I DO GUYS???????? HELP!!
Just wanted to make a small correction...I don't want to make it seem like I do all the work and he does nothing in return because in all actuality I haven't done much of anything since I've gotten pregnant, he does a lot for me, we do a lot for each other...that's why I just don't understand why we just don't go ahead and get married.
I need to vent and whine to someone, and you guys drew the short straw...
As you know I'm pregnant and I have been in this on and off again nonsense with my boyfriend...ex-boyfriend...boyfriend...the guy that got me knocked up. We once again decided to try it again...er...I decided I would take him back, anyhoo, I want to get married and have always wanted to get married, I never wanted to just be a 'baby momma' or a long-term girlfriend, I want to be a wife. I want to share my life with someone, build a life with someone, all that good old fashioned stuff.
I told him the other day that if this wasn't going to lead to marriage we don't need to be together, because we are wasting one anothers time...he asked me if I was ready for marriage and I said yes, he said he's not ready and he feels that I am "rushing" him...RUSHING??? RUSHING??? :irked: We have had so many good times and tender moments together and I truly love him, we have been together for a year and a couple of months, we have a baby on the way, we been playing house all this time why not make things legal? I have taken on the role of wife for him, when he was not working (like now) I'M the one that makes sure he has ciggerettes and whatever else his little heart desires, I'm the one that gets tackled on the bed whenever he's feeling randy, I'm the one that takes care of his business, keeps track of his important paperwork, writes down or memorizes his friends and family members phone numbers, because he can't keep track of 'em. I used to hand wash his unmentionables:Scared: when we didn't have laundry money!! I have gone damn near to the ends of the earth for this man...but he feels I'M RUSHING HIM!!!!!!! I'm so ding dang angry I just don't know what to do. We've been through me telling him "leave me alone, this ain't working" he still comes back. I dang near tried to kill him a couple weeks ago, tried to throw the apartment building at him and he STILL comes back...I've told him I hated him, couldn't stand the sight of him...and he still comes back....I don't understand, either he really loves me, doesn't understand english or he's a glutton for punishment. It's apparent he has no intentions of every being out of my life...especially now since he has a son on the way.
WHAT DO I DO GUYS???????? HELP!!
Just wanted to make a small correction...I don't want to make it seem like I do all the work and he does nothing in return because in all actuality I haven't done much of anything since I've gotten pregnant, he does a lot for me, we do a lot for each other...that's why I just don't understand why we just don't go ahead and get married.