Evening everyone
Take a seat, this is going to be a long one!
My mother has been through a lot in the past 10 years which mostly began when her mum passed away, she plummeted into debt through buying for self-satisfaction, began hiding bills, not going to bed & lots of other weird behaviour. I was only 9 at this time so was too young to understand what was going on. She went to the doctors after being adamant that there were bugs crawling out of her skin. I'm 19 years old now & I'm honestly getting to the point of no return with her, she will argue with me for no reason, tell me I'm a horrible daughter, she's said she wished she'd had 3 boys instead (I have 2 brothers), she always says I needed a good slap when I was younger, she said in front of my 9 year old cousin that she wanted to pour boiling hot water over me and when I bring it up she denies ever saying it, she lies to me about what my family say about me and just today whilst she was arguing with me she said that a few people (including my brothers ex girlfriend who he broke up with when I was about 13 & she was lovely!) have told her that I thought I was better than them, I know the last is a lie because who in the right mind would tell someones mum that? It's almost like her goal in life is to prove me wrong with anything I ever do, she's NEVER happy for me, ever. I've never thought I'm better than someone else, I'm far too insecure & friendly anyway haha
Anyway, it's got to the point now where it's really grinding me down, I don't want to start to believe that I really am a horrible person or that I'm immature. I've told her that I miss my old mum and want her back & said I'd go to the doctors with her, she agreed & said that she wanted to get back to normal (this was a lovely conversation & I thought we were headed in the right direction) but nothing... I can't understand what I've ever done for her to be like this toward me but I'm genuinely starting to question my feelings toward her, if I had a pound for every time I'd cried myself to sleep I'd be a millionaire and the worst thing is my dad is always stuck in the middle as he wants to make us both happy
Wow, a very long story cut short if ever I thought I could haha.
Has anyone else had experiences like this? Any tips on how to deal with it or any organisations? As far as help for my mum, well I know that is a lost cause so I'm just trying to find a way to cope at the minute, not a resolution.
Also any posters please feel free to rant/rave about your pain the ass families too xxx
Take a seat, this is going to be a long one!
My mother has been through a lot in the past 10 years which mostly began when her mum passed away, she plummeted into debt through buying for self-satisfaction, began hiding bills, not going to bed & lots of other weird behaviour. I was only 9 at this time so was too young to understand what was going on. She went to the doctors after being adamant that there were bugs crawling out of her skin. I'm 19 years old now & I'm honestly getting to the point of no return with her, she will argue with me for no reason, tell me I'm a horrible daughter, she's said she wished she'd had 3 boys instead (I have 2 brothers), she always says I needed a good slap when I was younger, she said in front of my 9 year old cousin that she wanted to pour boiling hot water over me and when I bring it up she denies ever saying it, she lies to me about what my family say about me and just today whilst she was arguing with me she said that a few people (including my brothers ex girlfriend who he broke up with when I was about 13 & she was lovely!) have told her that I thought I was better than them, I know the last is a lie because who in the right mind would tell someones mum that? It's almost like her goal in life is to prove me wrong with anything I ever do, she's NEVER happy for me, ever. I've never thought I'm better than someone else, I'm far too insecure & friendly anyway haha
Anyway, it's got to the point now where it's really grinding me down, I don't want to start to believe that I really am a horrible person or that I'm immature. I've told her that I miss my old mum and want her back & said I'd go to the doctors with her, she agreed & said that she wanted to get back to normal (this was a lovely conversation & I thought we were headed in the right direction) but nothing... I can't understand what I've ever done for her to be like this toward me but I'm genuinely starting to question my feelings toward her, if I had a pound for every time I'd cried myself to sleep I'd be a millionaire and the worst thing is my dad is always stuck in the middle as he wants to make us both happy
Wow, a very long story cut short if ever I thought I could haha.
Has anyone else had experiences like this? Any tips on how to deal with it or any organisations? As far as help for my mum, well I know that is a lost cause so I'm just trying to find a way to cope at the minute, not a resolution.
Also any posters please feel free to rant/rave about your pain the ass families too xxx