michellemaillet
Member
Hi,
This feels weird for me to post here, but I just need to tell someone... and telling others that are not super close to me somehow makes it easier and less scary
I left my husband last night. I have not loved him for a long time now... I am miserable with him, but stayed for the sake of trying to make it work and for the kids. The children are now all grown up (17 and 20).
I am scared, because I already feel lonely, scared for financial stability, scared he is not going to do well.... scared period.
I can go on and on... but I won't... I am not expecting any major responses as I am a complete stranger and what is there to say, really?
I am 40 years old and can't believe I am alone. Deep down, in the long run, I know I will be happier... but in the short term the emotions make me wonder if I was stupid to do it. I know it would be dumb to stay with someone I don't truly love... I was getting more angrier, frustrated and depriving him of love more and more as the years went on and although he says he loves me, I think he will probably be happier in the long run.
Wow.... 24 years of being with him, and now I am single! Yikes.... I am in a state of numbness.... overwhelmed with how we move forward with a mortgage, house, vehicles.... ugg.
Anyways... I should stop.... if you are still reading... thanks for listening. Have any of you found yourself at the crossroad I am at? And....??
Hugs,
michelle
(PS. I am a new nail tech that has been running a home business... it is going well... I am booking between 5 and 8 appointments a week and I have only been certified for 4 months). I am happy with how that has been going. It won't be enough to carry me though... will have to go find a part time job to supplement my income un less God gives me a few extra clients a week starting right away! LOL.)
This feels weird for me to post here, but I just need to tell someone... and telling others that are not super close to me somehow makes it easier and less scary
I left my husband last night. I have not loved him for a long time now... I am miserable with him, but stayed for the sake of trying to make it work and for the kids. The children are now all grown up (17 and 20).
I am scared, because I already feel lonely, scared for financial stability, scared he is not going to do well.... scared period.
I can go on and on... but I won't... I am not expecting any major responses as I am a complete stranger and what is there to say, really?
I am 40 years old and can't believe I am alone. Deep down, in the long run, I know I will be happier... but in the short term the emotions make me wonder if I was stupid to do it. I know it would be dumb to stay with someone I don't truly love... I was getting more angrier, frustrated and depriving him of love more and more as the years went on and although he says he loves me, I think he will probably be happier in the long run.
Wow.... 24 years of being with him, and now I am single! Yikes.... I am in a state of numbness.... overwhelmed with how we move forward with a mortgage, house, vehicles.... ugg.
Anyways... I should stop.... if you are still reading... thanks for listening. Have any of you found yourself at the crossroad I am at? And....??
Hugs,
michelle
(PS. I am a new nail tech that has been running a home business... it is going well... I am booking between 5 and 8 appointments a week and I have only been certified for 4 months). I am happy with how that has been going. It won't be enough to carry me though... will have to go find a part time job to supplement my income un less God gives me a few extra clients a week starting right away! LOL.)