Wonda
Well-Known Member
Just under 11 years ago, I had 2 full blown epileptic fits in just over a week apart. These were put down to what they thought was a cyst on the brain. A year later they said were fairly sure its just cyst but we want to do a biopsy. Under the biopsy they found out it was a grade 2 glioma (brain tumour) & I was treated with Radiotherapy.
(for those who dont know, the only difference between benign & cancerous is the grade, 1-2 is benign, 3-4 is cancerous).
Anyways, after yearly checks & medication, the epilepsy was controlled & the tumour wasnt growing. So I started to live my life again, got my driving licence back, passed my motorbike test, got a 600cc motorbike, got engaged, nearly got married (cancelled that cause he was an alcoholic), move out & back into my parents house twice, had several jobs & a few months ago decided to set up my own business doing nails.
As some of you may have seen from previous posts, Ive also suffered a bit of depression recently, due to not getting things in life I want personally, like a husband & kids & a place of my own.
So anyways, Tuesday evening came & I was feeling a little low after a guy Id been chatting to via texts & phone calls for the last 2 months cancelled our first date & I havent heard from him since. So I was sat on my bed doing some paperwork for the tax office & next thing I know, Im in the local A&E having had a full blown fit again.
Thankfully no concussion considering I fell backwards near the radiator, however Im aching all over & I have a severely bitten tongue. I now have to wait 2 weeks to see a Neurologist, then go back to the hospital to have MRIs & get put back on medication & god knows what other tests, but more importantly, Ive now got to give up my driving & riding licences, among other silly things Im now not allowed to do again such as take a bath on my own or go swimming !!
I have a feeling my tumour has grown again & this was the reason for the low moods Ive been feeling as usually Im a positive person. Just have to wait & see.
My main point to telling you all this is that even though I was feeling like crap 48 hours ago, something happened to make me realise again that no matter what happens in life, you really have to take the positives from things & move on.
As Im saying that, I know some people will say, positives ? from what Ive just put, but there is.
I now believe that my depression has had its backside kicked into place as there are bigger things happening now than feeling sorry for myself, as the only way I can beat whatever is going on in my noggin, is to face it head on & theres no room for depression !!
(for those who dont know, the only difference between benign & cancerous is the grade, 1-2 is benign, 3-4 is cancerous).
Anyways, after yearly checks & medication, the epilepsy was controlled & the tumour wasnt growing. So I started to live my life again, got my driving licence back, passed my motorbike test, got a 600cc motorbike, got engaged, nearly got married (cancelled that cause he was an alcoholic), move out & back into my parents house twice, had several jobs & a few months ago decided to set up my own business doing nails.
As some of you may have seen from previous posts, Ive also suffered a bit of depression recently, due to not getting things in life I want personally, like a husband & kids & a place of my own.
So anyways, Tuesday evening came & I was feeling a little low after a guy Id been chatting to via texts & phone calls for the last 2 months cancelled our first date & I havent heard from him since. So I was sat on my bed doing some paperwork for the tax office & next thing I know, Im in the local A&E having had a full blown fit again.
Thankfully no concussion considering I fell backwards near the radiator, however Im aching all over & I have a severely bitten tongue. I now have to wait 2 weeks to see a Neurologist, then go back to the hospital to have MRIs & get put back on medication & god knows what other tests, but more importantly, Ive now got to give up my driving & riding licences, among other silly things Im now not allowed to do again such as take a bath on my own or go swimming !!
I have a feeling my tumour has grown again & this was the reason for the low moods Ive been feeling as usually Im a positive person. Just have to wait & see.
My main point to telling you all this is that even though I was feeling like crap 48 hours ago, something happened to make me realise again that no matter what happens in life, you really have to take the positives from things & move on.
As Im saying that, I know some people will say, positives ? from what Ive just put, but there is.
I now believe that my depression has had its backside kicked into place as there are bigger things happening now than feeling sorry for myself, as the only way I can beat whatever is going on in my noggin, is to face it head on & theres no room for depression !!
!!!!!!! Hope all goes well xx
