No need to feel daft, that's what we are here for you, and yes your journal has shown your anxiety!! Don't keep it bottled up, chat it over with your mum, you'll soon find out that that's what mum's are for! You aren't an independent person anymore. You're in a good relationship with a good man (especially at barbeques lol!) and a baby on the way. You are a little family unit and you all depend on each other, it's a lot to take in in such a hosrt space of time. :hug: :hug:
(Gawd I sound like Marge Proops today lol!)