My thoughts are with you and your family,i recently lost my mum to cancer,she was 60yrs old.It broke my heart to lose her but aftr all she'd been though i breathed a sigh of relief in knowing she was now at peace,and i do believe she is still with me everyday,watching over me,and to me this is a great comfort.It doesn't feel fair our loved ones our taken away,yet the likes of these terrorists etc live on! A parent should never have to bury a child,and my heart really does go out to you.try to be strong and to tell people how you feel,it really doesn't help when you bottle it up and shout at people(like i did lol),remember happy times nobody can take those away.god bless xxx