SmileNails
Well-Known Member
Despite have 2 kids.... Xmas has never meant a lot to me.
Childhood = I never remember the good stuff, being excited I got new toys etc - only ever my parents stressing, arguing, fake smiles and then as soon as the presents were opened they ignored us.
Teenage years = my mum left when I was 10, my dad brought us up, so have no fond memories. He tried but was stressed with 3 kids. He also made a big point of separating our gifts - one pile from him and another from my mum and it ruined it as my mum had a bit more money so it was as if he was making a point of him having no money.
Now = I'm married (only just, we are separating) with 2 kids. I try my hardest and it's never stressful as we don't have family nearby so no big dinner to make. We only buy for our kids and our nephews, so no worries money wise compared to what other people have to spend!!
But I just can't seem to shake off the negative feeling I have towards the day. Wish I could pinpoint what exactly it is so I could banish it.
I still shy off for about half an hour - my husband leaves me to it. And then back to trying my best for the kids.
Hate it .... Bah humbug = but I really want to enjoy it!!!!!xx
Childhood = I never remember the good stuff, being excited I got new toys etc - only ever my parents stressing, arguing, fake smiles and then as soon as the presents were opened they ignored us.
Teenage years = my mum left when I was 10, my dad brought us up, so have no fond memories. He tried but was stressed with 3 kids. He also made a big point of separating our gifts - one pile from him and another from my mum and it ruined it as my mum had a bit more money so it was as if he was making a point of him having no money.
Now = I'm married (only just, we are separating) with 2 kids. I try my hardest and it's never stressful as we don't have family nearby so no big dinner to make. We only buy for our kids and our nephews, so no worries money wise compared to what other people have to spend!!
But I just can't seem to shake off the negative feeling I have towards the day. Wish I could pinpoint what exactly it is so I could banish it.
I still shy off for about half an hour - my husband leaves me to it. And then back to trying my best for the kids.
Hate it .... Bah humbug = but I really want to enjoy it!!!!!xx