rachel_1984
Well-Known Member
think it just might be the end of the day with Serkan.
We were sat this morning in the living room at his uncle's house, I was on the Internet and Serkan was sat talking to his older cousin. In the house were also his uncle's young son, and one of his uncle's girl friends.
Our Aile Cuzdani (wedding book) was on the table and Serkan abruptly asked me to move it. I said OK, and continued my work on the Internet. He then again abruptly asked me to move it, to which I replied what is the rush, its not going anywhere. At this post he was getting p**sed off so I put it in my suitcase and said are you happy now?
He then replied who are you talking to like that? I said well you move your passport then in case that gets lost. He then started swearing in Turkish calling me all the names you can imagine. His cousin told him to calm down as he was out of order.
He then changed his clothes and said to his cousin, come on, were off out. I said to Serkan dont come back to my house tomorrow in England (for the sake of my Mum I said it, I swear it was for no other reason). He then hit me three times across the face and told me to f**k off out of the house.
I was in total shock for a couple of minutes and couldnt move. His cousin was restraining him whilst Serkan was still swearing at me. I then lunged at him after hitting me again, and call him a bastard, at which point he hit me so hard across the face I fell on the floor and broke a nail halfway down. He hit me with so much force that my ear is ringing.
He told me it was over and that he was divorcing me, and I replied yes please do, its the best thing you can do for me. Him and his cousin then left the house and I was being consoled by his uncle's friend.
Im in so much shock I really just dont know what to do anymore. All the time I have stood by him when he has been nasty before, and now my world has come crashing down. Im shaking like hell as I write this, and Im not even flying back to England until tomorrow. His uncle had bought a ticket to come with us for 8 days, and now I feel so embarrased that all this has happened.
My mum has just called and I had to pretend everything was ok. She doesnt need anymore stress at the moment, especially whilst she is still having chemo.
Im scared of being alone too. Most of my old school friends stopped contact with me when I moved to Turkey, and I feel so ashamed that I couldnt even make my own marriage work.
Where the hell do I go from here? My heart has seriously broken again, and I cant take it anymore.
Love and hugs
We were sat this morning in the living room at his uncle's house, I was on the Internet and Serkan was sat talking to his older cousin. In the house were also his uncle's young son, and one of his uncle's girl friends.
Our Aile Cuzdani (wedding book) was on the table and Serkan abruptly asked me to move it. I said OK, and continued my work on the Internet. He then again abruptly asked me to move it, to which I replied what is the rush, its not going anywhere. At this post he was getting p**sed off so I put it in my suitcase and said are you happy now?
He then replied who are you talking to like that? I said well you move your passport then in case that gets lost. He then started swearing in Turkish calling me all the names you can imagine. His cousin told him to calm down as he was out of order.
He then changed his clothes and said to his cousin, come on, were off out. I said to Serkan dont come back to my house tomorrow in England (for the sake of my Mum I said it, I swear it was for no other reason). He then hit me three times across the face and told me to f**k off out of the house.
I was in total shock for a couple of minutes and couldnt move. His cousin was restraining him whilst Serkan was still swearing at me. I then lunged at him after hitting me again, and call him a bastard, at which point he hit me so hard across the face I fell on the floor and broke a nail halfway down. He hit me with so much force that my ear is ringing.
He told me it was over and that he was divorcing me, and I replied yes please do, its the best thing you can do for me. Him and his cousin then left the house and I was being consoled by his uncle's friend.
Im in so much shock I really just dont know what to do anymore. All the time I have stood by him when he has been nasty before, and now my world has come crashing down. Im shaking like hell as I write this, and Im not even flying back to England until tomorrow. His uncle had bought a ticket to come with us for 8 days, and now I feel so embarrased that all this has happened.
My mum has just called and I had to pretend everything was ok. She doesnt need anymore stress at the moment, especially whilst she is still having chemo.
Im scared of being alone too. Most of my old school friends stopped contact with me when I moved to Turkey, and I feel so ashamed that I couldnt even make my own marriage work.
Where the hell do I go from here? My heart has seriously broken again, and I cant take it anymore.
Love and hugs
