I am so sorry to hear about your mum the pain is just too much. I have just found out that my mum has inoperable pancreas cancer she is 68. The Drs have told her with Chemo she has a maximum of 1 year, but I do not think she is going to have chemo. She is my best friend and my life. I am an only child and do not have a father it has always been my mum and I. You will have good days and bad days, there will be times when you walk down the street and see someone who looks like her and you will cry, you will get angry. No words can describe what you are going through and the worst this is that you think what must they be going through. My mother is a really strong lady and to see her cry breaks my heart, you must enjoy every moment with her and talk, take many photos, videos because there will be times when you want to be close to her when she is not there and just to listen to her voice I think will help. My thoughts are with you and there are other people out there going though what you and I are going through, I cannot sleep, eat and nothing seems important anymore. I am also opening my own salon right now and my heart is not even in that. I want my mum to be there to see this and to enjoy what I will be able to do for her as she has done for me all her life, but this is just not to be. It just doesn't seem fair. Part of me wants to die too, but life has to go on and when people told me that I wanted to shout at them "you don't know the pain im feeling" but they are right, life must go on and your mum will always be there shes in your heart and no one or anything can take that away from you. Take care and god bless to you and your mum.:cry: